Collin growing up

Yesterday was the last time I nursed Collin. I am not producing enough milk anymore. I have to admit that though I was very grateful to be able to nurse Collin, I didn't just love it. I've had a hard time keeping up with what he needed so he would cry a lot when he ate. I mostly did it out of knowing that it was good for Collin, and the fact that it was free. So, knowing all that, I didn't think it would really affect me when I stopped. But I was sad this morning when I didn't nurse him first thing, and knowing that I can no longer give him something when we are away from home and I forgot food for him. It was a bigger deal then I thought it would be, and I wish I had prepared myself better for it. To me, this is the first big step to show that Collin is growing up, and the first time I've cried because of it. I guess it just gets harder from here.