I just have to add this to my post from yesterday. I feel guilty about going on and on about how grumpy Collin is. I know that he is such an amazing guy, and when he is happy it is so fun to have him. I am so grateful for him, and that he is healthy. I mean, there are a lot of things that could be wrong with him, but every time we bring him to the doctor he tells us everything looks great. Which is really nice. And in a way, its nice that most of the time I know that I can calm him down just by holding him. And that he likes me holding him so much that he wants it all the time. But it adds a lot of stress when I do have to leave him, and when I can't calm him down its like there is nothing I can do. I just have to lay him in his bed and let him cry.
But the bottom line is that I am so lucky to have him, and I am so grateful for him. I thank my Heavenly Father every day for him.
I think another thing that helped me really get things in line yesterday was when I went to visit my mom and dad, and found out that my dad broke both the bones in his leg. For those who don't know, my dad has MS and is pretty much to the point where he can't move too much from the neck down. I guess that last week he fell off his bed. My mom has been watching him the since then and noticed a big yellow bruise on his leg. She decided yesterday that it just wasn't getting better so she took him to the doctor. Its hard because my dad can't feel anything so he couldn't tell my mom that he was in any pain. The doctor took an x-ray of him, and found the break. My mom and dad are such amazing people. My dad is such a trooper, no matter what is going on, whenever I ask him how he is, he always says Good. And he really means it. And my mom takes care of him 24/7. She does everything for him and does such a good job. I love my parents so much and am so grateful for them. I just realized yesterday that even though sometimes I feel like things are so hard, I just look at my parents and see how well they handle everything that has been given to them. And I think how much of a pansy I'm being :) I just need to buck up and realize how lucky I am. Anyway, sorry about the long blogs lately...
3 comments:
Jenny - I'm sorry to hear about your dad. Are they going to have to cast his leg? I'm also sorry to hear that you and Collin are having some hard times. I actually remember being like that alot with Tanner. And I understand about not wanting to let him have a little cry out too. Tanner never slept and he still doesn't, but he is such a good good boy now and I sure don't know what I would've done without him. We will keep you guys in our prayers and hope that everything will work out for the best! We love you and the strong person that you are!
I'm sorry about your dad. Your parents are so strong. What a great example. and feel what you may, but personally I think you don't have to feel too guilty for venting or for feeling grumpy about your situation! Sometimes it does help. You may not have felt the opposite as strongly if you hadn't. I wish I could help. I do think you are doing great and you're a good mom!!!!
Jenny! I found your blog:) I just read through some of your postings and I must say you are amazing! You must have sooo much patience. Little Collin is so lucky to have you. You should bring him over anytime you need some fresh air!
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