I know my last post- and maybe a little of this one- has been depressing. I promise I'm not really too depressed, just a little worried. When I get worried I tend to notice all the things that are going wrong...
I had a busy day yesterday, trying to get the house clean and do dishes and fold laundry, then put it away, and vacuum when no one is napping, and such. As I was doing all this I walked into the room and noticed Collin sitting on the floor reading to himself. Now, this is not a bad thing. Except I realized that it had been a long time since I had taken the time to read him a book. Yesterday I was reading something about babies and realized that I have probably sung to Landon 3 or 4 times in his whole life. Both of these things made me sad. I realized that Collin got so much time with me when he was little because he needed it. I sang to Collin all the time. But I don't sing to Landon because he is so much less needy. I used to read to Collin all the time but I don't as much anymore because I'm trying to get Landon in bed so that I can get Collin to bed.
I really don't feel like I am a clean freak. I go days having clean clothes in baskets or folded and waiting to be put away. But I know that I could use my time better after the kids are asleep doing a lot of this stuff so that I could spend more time with them when they are awake.
So today I sang to Landon. And read a book with Collin.
2 comments:
I am going through the exact same thing. Jasper was a trial when he was a baby and Journey is so good you hardly know she's there. It's hard remembering all the things that need to be done, including taking the time to do the things to make each child feel special and loved. I didn't think it would really be so hard.
you will figure it out jenny. you are a wonderful mother, i know it! and don't worry about the job thing. just make sure he is collecting unemployment, it helps, and pay your tithing and I PROMISE it will work out. Richard was out of work for almost 2 months this summer, and we are still on our feet. Somehow, I still can't figure it out, we got through it! and you will too. good luck!
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