Saturday afternoon I was doing the dishes when a glass got knocked into the sink and cut the top of my left hand. Luckily Chase was around to help hold the cut closed. We wrapped an ace bandage around it and went to the ER. I guess we went at a good time, they were able to get us through pretty quick. I don't know how many stitches I got but the gash was 1.5 inches long.
Because of where the cut is on my hand it has made things pretty hard, so I'm really glad its on my left hand. My pinkie is the most affected finger- when I try to extend my fingers my pinkie just kind of... hangs there. I try not to use my hand, but even putting my hair in a ponytail will just about make me cry. Landon has been sick for the last 4 days or so, and so trying to hold him is frustrating, to say the least.
I think the thing I am struggling with the most though is feeling so discouraged. I feel like I received two quite (seemingly small) promptings before the accident happened that I didn't listen to. Because of that I can't do so many things. I asked Chase and my brother to give me a blessing yesterday and in the blessing I was told that the Lord was aware of me and I was told not to feel frustrated or discouraged. It brought tears to my eyes because I hadn't told Chase how I was feeling.
I was reading through some quotes yesterday afternoon and came across this one that I felt was said in conference just for me:
"The Savior's parable of the wise man who built his house upon a rock has power precisely because it illustrates that life's challenges befell the wise man too. The rains fell, the winds blew, the floods rose up. Yet he survived it all because he built upon a sure foundation and, crucially, he stayed when the storm came."
-Elder David S. Baxter
Another thing that I was told in the blessing is I need to study the scriptures and talk with my Heavenly Father every day, even if it is for just a short time. I feel that if I had been doing that more consistently before this accident I might not feel so discouraged. I would have a more sure foundation. But I can still start today, and do better today.
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oh jenny im so sorry you are having a hard time i understand if you need a friend to talk to or come visit dont be shy we are here for you!!! You will pull through this life is hard but you are strong!! We need to start a girls night so we can go do fun stuff together and relax!!
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